Friday, June 26, 2009
my hours were in pediatrics this morning, left me with a lot of new thoughts. it's good human preventative medicine, well on the non-acute visits. i think i really liked it. especially since i'll never have children. hm, thoughts need to coalesce.
Monday, June 22, 2009
my mom is an amazing shirt-shrinker, even thought i still swim in it. it's like a body blanket. moving past all that, cate came over tonight :) we filled our brains with plans and out bellies with dairy-free mint choco chip. the air smelt like up and coming wonderfulness. i feel more at ease. now back to monosodium glutamate abstracts, fffff. cate, get home safe.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
in all my 'ehs' with cate last night, the verbal detox has depressed me past sea level. i'm become so black in thought. yo, fuck. brainnnnnnnnn issues. i want to crawl into a bed that doesn't belong to me nor to anyone else, someplace that no one holds ownership.
there are so many territories that i know i do not belong in.
so i'll continue to lay down with beirut and my legs up - blood rush, suppress my thoughts until the awkward, awkward fathers' day dinner. i'll probably even up at another bar, sipping hot chocolate like last christmas eve.
pity party for one.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
thoughts on eugenio dittborn occurred to me today.
"The airmail painting has been Dittborn's primary occupation since 1984. The works in this exhibition were executed on large sheets of cotton duck, then folded and sent in envelopes through the international mail system from his home in Santiago, Chile to New York. The envelopes are of his own design, and he provides relevant information on them, from an itinerary of a painting's travels to a description of the piece. The airmail envelopes are considered a key component of the work, and are always exhibited alongside the image. His pictures impart a clearly humanistic message, with undertones of skepticism and irony."
Monday, June 15, 2009
and yes, for basically the whole weekend. my parents had to nurse me back to health. for the hours i wasn't in bed, i went to kwam's with cate and had ourselves a delicious, outdoorsy, dino-fill, fun-tastic time.
i suppose it was all the hours of resting and thinking in addition to the wounded-ness i was feeling from the allergic reaction, but i started thinking very much like a female; and that mindset is never good. next point, considering today is monday, it is day #1 of resisting stress.
my mom got me the book "the cortisol connection" and i am learning the specifics of how stress ruins your tissues and exhaust your endocrine system. i get overwhelmed too often and even though, it is justified, i need to find a healthy way to dispose of it. thus, day one.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
alexander library then watched the fall and the little romanian girl was named alexandria. tarsem made it incredibly beautiful, 100% every shot. cinematographic cannot even be used here, brain explosion! concept and it's orientation, oh wow. dear cate, i will fingertickle your brain. also - the air smells great outside, right now - like fresh cut grass and jasmine/honeysuckles.