Friday, July 3, 2009


i am the ugly duckling salamander. kick in the brain. one zero, zero, twenty. things i thought were for the best were not. it is an awkward stage i created. set fire to it, burn it all to zero.


morning to afternoon, worm wiggles & farmer markets down the street. i finished my abstract and grant proposal, such productive day. wigggle wiggle wormin' it.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

no birdgod is going to save you, edward.

wonderful, hunter s thompson. cate, we're going to be the change for the world.

i can do something that no one else can do, something important, maybe even necessary.

netflix recommended this to me, amazing watch. 100% re-watch-able, almost inspiring if you take it metaphorically. check it out on imdb.

"i want my costume to tell people that they shouldn't give up, no matter how alone they sometimes feel, because anything is possible"

my mind's like rattling bingo balls, i need to seek out a place to help me achieve the help i need to stop. a place like an eggnest, where the twigs are as external capillaries that feed me all the life sustaining nutrients i need. i want to need and never to want again. necessity, nestcity.